And he got into the boat with them, and the wind ceased. And they were utterly astounded,  for they did not understand about the loaves, but their hearts were hardened. (Mark 6:51-52)
Think about it. The disciples worldview, religious Jewish beliefs and convictions of the Messiah were being bombarded by Jesus’ identity and works. Experiencing the miraculous, hearing the profound claims and teachings of Jesus shook the disciples traditions and beliefs of God. They were actually living side by side with God? That’s right!
While being astounded and growing in understanding, their hearts are noted here in Mark as hardened. But they weren’t opposed or hostile as many who came into contact with Jesus teachings and miracles like the feeding of 5,000 or calming storms, walking on water. The disciples were simply growing in understanding and faith through each experience.
I know that my relationship is an on going and on-growing one in Christ. While I’ve experienced Jesus’ teachings, revelations of truth, miracles through prayer and seeing lives transformed etc... it’s amazing how dull, calloused and hardened I could be.
Today I’m encouraged, not condemned. My faith is growing - I have an on-growing faith in Jesus, one day, one experience, one revelation, one step at a time. Sometimes I doubt, I get tired, discouraged in life - but my faith is in Jesus, not circumstances. And while I may question God about circumstances, I am committed to an on-growing faith and trust in Him!
Onward Christian soldier, I’m marching, fighting, serving in the battle of life. And my battle is so “very small and insignificant.” Compared to many other harsh, critical, life endangering situations, I am blessed. I have nothing to complain about. I am committed to grow on in my on-growing faith and trust in You Lord!